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27 entries this month
HB
19:41 Mar 28 2017
Times Read: 644
On this day, I grant you credit...
Pretty... Irish... Girl...
But I shouldn't be angry at the treatment... :: shakes head::
02:42 Mar 28 2017
Times Read: 694
An honest, curious question. It'll forever elude me how a simple question such as this can result in such anger and cold viciousness.
"Tell me something? Why is it when you tell me that you are off for a prolonged period of time, and you tell me that you have no plans during this time, why do you only reach out to me so very late in the night? "
Life.
21:53 Mar 26 2017
Times Read: 736
Some things are just
too perfect
to pass up.
Like eclairs and tampons.
18:11 Mar 26 2017
Times Read: 764
The day even one person puts EFFORT into working against their own blatant hypocrisy is the day I die of a heart attack.
People will forever talk badly about this site. They down trod it and the negative people found scattered throughout. Yet, they stick around like rats on an infested ship. If it's so horrid, leave. If the people are so disgusting, avoid them. It's actually pretty damn easy.
Yet, consistently I see it, and read it. How they are better than wasting time away on here for hours on end. How they have a beautiful life, off of this site and in the real world. (as opposed to what? the fake world?) All the while... sitting on cam for hours.
For hours.
Most times do they even put effort to just enjoy that time? Nope. They spend it bitching and complaining about one person or another or their short comings in relations to the site or life.
Really? But you have better things to do?
Could have fooled me.
You even admit to being a hypocrite and it means fuck all, because you do nothing to change it.
You return to the site here, or there, or a bit later on. And fly straight back into your old patterns whilst claiming you have better things to do. The life that you have takes priority. Yet, i always giggle at these sentiments. Because they tickle me just as much as when someone claims "I don't care."
Hey broski? News flash. Ya do.
Hey sistah? Guess what? You do too.
If there's something you don't care about? Why shine light on it? Give it the time of day?
Hard questions. Really.
Nothing like actually listening to a person almost religiously put down this site and how it makes them feel, and have them sit on it for hours after they spew all their bullshit.
Is this aimed at a hypocrite? Absolutely. Is there more than one of you I have in mind? No, but hey... lace the bitch up and wear it. You are not going to change.
Life is too beautiful to be here? As you type it here.
Are you serious? It wasn't beautiful enough to keep you from typing that... here... where you spend hours sucking in faux validation and and a false sense of towering over those you consider yourself better than. Beautiful indeed.
Everyone has their freedoms. You are allowed your opinions just as I am allowed mine. You are allowed to do shit as you please, to an extent, because lets face it, hurting others is a dirtball thing to choose to do. But, it's still your freedom to do so... But for fucks sake, if you're going to be a slime ball about your life, could you ask least own it? There truly is nothing wrong with being honest, even if you are honest about being a monster in disguise.
07:52 Mar 25 2017
Times Read: 799
annnnnnnnd the journal changes.
Precisely what I fucking thought.
Cute though.
07:38 Mar 25 2017
Times Read: 804
And just how high is deception and lying again?
About as high as the erection inspired.
Keep lying to yourself.
Slain... bad Slain. Horrid Slain.
21:23 Mar 24 2017
Times Read: 871
In the world of convictions, using people when you are in need and shelving them when they need you, is a constant. Cry asshole when your lies are challenged, and claim you owe no one an explanation. Liars hide behind this. When your behavior denotes suspicion, one doesn't take offense when someone points that out. You simply dispel the doubt unless you want to hide or seem devious.
But what are appearance? But what you put out to people. People see you a certain way because they only see a part of you. That's great solace to someone that has something to hide. But that's okay.
Me asking for doubt to be removed is cause to call me aggressive? So be it. Me not wanting to be lied to, is unacceptable, and demanding? Sure. That's a normal description of that stance. Being secretive and deceptive is so important to you that you'll say...
"If I can't lie to you freely, and not be questioned, then i want nothing to do with you."
Then have nothing to do with me. You keep to your lies and those that accept them. Keep my asshole, truth wanting abusive nature far away from you, and everything about you. Block me and keep me blocked, stick to your fucking convictions and morals and make the decision to remove me from your life because of your behavior and my unwillingness to accept that mistreatment.
You wish to walk away from me because I won't be a toy to you? I can accept that. The mother fucking trick to it? I can't accept it if you keep going back on your word of removing me from your life and coming back to fucking speak to me as if a few weeks, months, years, are going to smooth over your adolescent, deceptive behaviors. Lying is lying. A few laughs here and there, and cyberfucking yourself to ease tension of being deceptive, does not and will never change that. That doesn't cheapen it, does it? Glad we cleared that up. More value with a stranger just for kicks. Good to know.
And I'll wear proudly any scars that come from standing my ground on not being treated like garbage. You need to walk away from me since I am so horrid. My door remains open and chances too plentiful to those that wish to be decent people to me. If you want no part of that, then that's YOUR choice.
Keep me blocked, because it's you who wants me out of your life. Don't message me later claiming I've come back to you, I never walked away to begin with. Because I don't treat people like objects.
It is beyond heartbreaking that you'll have people telling you that it's okay to lie, and deceive... plainly due to the fact that they benefit from your deception as well or are liars themselves. There's a decent human being. :: snorts:: I guess that speaks volumes as to why so many dislike me, eh? What a surprise.
You can ridicule and belittle my moral convictions all you wish, but you can't cry foul when you come at odds with them, when it was that very part of my personality that drew you so far into me to begin with. Don't cry about my journals either, they are my business to write when I wish.
Strange though... it was around this fucking time, March and around March, that I wrote the last journal about your garbage behaviors towards me...
I guess you never will change. Go live your life as such. You don't need me in it.
It is easy. Isn't it?
03:48 Mar 20 2017
Times Read: 930
Y'all madafakas
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Need Jesus.
05:43 Mar 19 2017
Times Read: 960
In the world of maintaining appearances, the best thing to do is lie and hope one lie doesn't ever find itself to another lie you've told. Keep the lies separate that way you never have to explain a thing.
And in calling another a liar, do it without cause, that way you can deflect and avoid ever having to prove it. As long as you feel better when you wake up, in the end. Partner or no.
Don't go writing your own now. Too much of the same is... well... too much effort.
Then again... what's effort? When you say you put it in, but give up before you do? It's not important.
I never is.
04:20 Mar 18 2017
Times Read: 976
In the winter cold she kissesand vanishes despite my wishes
One as a bookmark
03:26 Mar 16 2017
Times Read: 995
An adept skill at killing within me what which you supposedly desire. Yet, please... boast again about how those that do have what you desire remain only friends.
Fuck this pain.
I have enough sorrow in my life without being made to feel like trash for not wanting to be mistreated.
02:10 Mar 16 2017
Times Read: 1,005
Time to send out the beacon. Go forth and flock you lonely shelved darlings.
Mama has use for you yet.
Hmm...00:56 Mar 16 2017
Times Read: 1,015
Y adonde voy ahora
con quien me aun devora
mi vida tal que borra
con su piel de acero toca
y mas fria va mi lengua
al el amor de cual se habla
sin tener meta alguna
y no tener semejante cosa
19:44 Mar 15 2017
Times Read: 1,029
Beautiful day in my neighborhood...
Having to chase down 5 assholes with a bat because they were chucking iceballs at my sister and mother.
MFer straight slipped and toppled when he saw me come out of my house and proceeded to gimp down tulip with his 4 buddies that left him in the dust.
Philly, I love you.
P.s... Please come back. I just want to play some baseball too. You can pitch again... when I'm done with you, you'll never give another walk again.
Just something I found interesting.
17:03 Mar 15 2017
Times Read: 1,040
In Today’s Relationships, We Cheat On Each Other Literally Every Day
This type of cheating causes much more damage than that of any sexual affair.
It’s 5:30 am, and your alarm goes off. You open your eyes, and your mind starts racing. Meetings, conference calls and project deadlines all loom.
Why is there always so much to do and never enough time to get it done?
You grab your phone and scroll through your notifications as you walk into the shower, half awake. Knowing she’s not up, you send her a text message: “Good morning, baby. I hope you have a wonderful day.”
This text serves as two reminders: You want her to know she’s the first thing on your mind. And, more importantly, she needs to realize that, regardless of how stressful or busy your days are, she’s the priority.
It sounds so perfect, but that’s not reality.
Instead, you’ll log into Instagram or Facebook, nosing into everyone else’s life, and maybe, just maybe, you’ll send that text to your woman on the way to work.
Relationships these days lack direction. People “date,” but what the hell does that even mean anymore? Is it hanging out twice a month? Texting all day? Kissing here and there?
Something is missing. What’s causing relationships to falter at the rate they are?
Relationships thrive on communication. Our most intimate emotions are reserved for the person we love, so how is it acceptable to never show them?
We’ve accepted so many unacceptable things: sitting at the dinner table with our phones out, arguing over text, publishing every minute of our lives on social media.
Do you know what trumps all that? That society has accepted relationships in which we are being cheated on every day.
When you think of cheating in the traditional sense, having sex with another person comes to mind. It’s an intimate situation in which the person you love is connecting with another while you are going about your life, loving and caring for said person. Once you find out, all trust is lost.
But think about the concept for a minute.
Webster’s Dictionary defines cheating as the deprivation of “something valuable by the use of deceit or fraud.”
Sure, sex is cheating and may be the most hurtful case, but have you ever stopped to think you’re being cheated out of your relationship every day?
We experience a lack of communication, attention, passion, intimacy and even lack of love. Why are we okay with this and all the communication shortcuts that have become so common?
This type of cheating causes much more damage than that of any sexual affair.
You’ve given your heart to someone and love him or her with every bone in your body, but you have to beg for his or her attention. You sit back and watch this person post status updates about useless things, or post pictures just so people can comment.
You need to take a minute to tell her she’s beautiful. Call her after work to say, “Get dressed in 30 minutes. I’m picking you up and taking you somewhere special.”
Make an effort. Old-fashioned love needs to make another round.
The days of holding hands, opening the car door, taking her out “just because,” sending her flowers just to get a smile and leaving her notes on her car should never be gone.
We have to be children when it comes to love. We have to be vulnerable and free. That can’t happen when we’re preoccupied with the details of everyone else’s lives.
Focus on each other. When it’s all said and done, that’s all you really have.
Appreciate her, and show her how much she means to you. But, most importantly, put your phone down, and dial into what’s in front of you.
by Anthony D’Ambrosio
Appreciation is very much key.
Makes me curious.
14:45 Mar 15 2017
Times Read: 1,048
When one preaches valuing others and appreciating what
they give, but squander what is right in front of them.
01:43 Mar 15 2017
Times Read: 1,073
You couldn't hate enough to love. Is that supposed to be enough?
01:23 Mar 15 2017
Times Read: 1,081
Say you'll haunt me . . .
Irony.21:47 Mar 13 2017
Times Read: 1,108
A person is open minded until humor is used around a topic they feel strongly about.
Irony.
I am starting to tell08:35 Mar 11 2017
Times Read: 1,121
It would appear that it's the weekend.
Give me War10:29 Mar 10 2017
Times Read: 1,155
~~Give me War~~
Your visage makes love to my memory
I grin every time I make you laugh
Because I worship the effects I can have on your body from afar.
And so do you.
You don't care, they're just lame jokes
Yet, you'll listen anyway.
Let me dwell in your dreams
Let me bathe in your darkness
Let me smile at your torment
Not because I enjoy
because you share it
you tell it.
Could I handle you presence
I'd dive at the thought
Let me breathe your essence.
Be the warrior you are
and battle me every waking moment.
Because our clashes have the most desirable endings.
Our bodies lying in ruin
in the battlefield of our dimly lit bedroom.
18:10 Mar 07 2017
Times Read: 1,181
It's damning when you catch yourself talking about someone that is very much not in your life, but you remember even the unpleasant moments with them fondly. You miss them dearly.
You miss them so much, almost enough to hate them for not being there.
Fucking wow.20:13 Mar 06 2017
Times Read: 1,208
What in the holy fuck, people? Really?
Curiosity, I say unto thee... Fuck you.
Alone.
03:54 Mar 06 2017
Times Read: 1,235
Message me, talk with me and noticed that I am not being very talkative. I am less talkative than normal, but I don't know why. Trying to think and just keep my minds somewhat less chaotic than it is at the moment. You call me, and assumptions are made about my less than verbose manner, and comments are made that are negative references to past conversations. I try to refute the assumptions and in fact say it is the opposite of what it seems, and my attempts are twisted into something else that is also negative, almost sparking an argument. I make note of the negative stance being taken towards me and try again to say different, it doesn't work. Now you want to get off call, and my last show that I'm not disinterested in conversation is to not want to get off call. I'm not left with many option while being told that conversation with me is less than desirable at the moment, even after I've tried explaining myself and not making negative comments that lead to discomfort. So I make note of what you now wish to do and let you know that I wait for you decision to either continue or go, which also was something I should not have done, according to you. The situation went the way it went, and then you chose to go, making sure to note how I'll reference being hung up on later on. I'm not alone in thinking being hung up on is less than thrilling. But it's still a freedom we all have.
All I ask is... what did I do?
I guess it really wasn't my turn this weekend.
One is only where they wish to be. They can't be forced.
19:59 Mar 05 2017
Times Read: 1,248
♫I seem to be what I'm not you see
I'm wearing my heart like a crown
Pretending that you're still around♫
Time
08:28 Mar 05 2017
Times Read: 1,268
Must have not been my turn this time around.
So.... LIFE!?!?!?03:18 Mar 01 2017
Times Read: 1,080
Holy mother fucking appointments, Batman!
Like... every other day this fucking month. And COUNTING.
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